progress

just wanna share some pics i have ...improvements from 2007 to 2009 b4 diet and 2 weeks after diet.

now some 2007 pics













and now 2 weeks into diet 2009 and guess what from 2007 -2009 my weight jumped from 85kg -88kg only

2nd week into it.

the weekends had been great,had 2 quality days with my darling and cooked her a wonderful and healthy meal last night.

she has been great during workouts...doing whatever i tell her to,60lbs for many men for a squat seems pretty heavy it seems...judging from their puny stick legs and the fucking pussy weight they handle.its not for her.from supersets to giant sets to compound movements ,she will do em all.

last week after legs training i got fucked up pretty badly due to the clen that i was on.it fucked my leg up so bad i had to call an ambulance to transport me to the nearest hospital. after that incident,i swear im nv going to fucking touch that motha fucking piece of thrash again.

dieting...has been like a share market...body respomding up and down...my fat % did not drop this week...and that was the last straw...a mother fucking wake up call with a slap on the face to me. my weight shot up by 1kg and my fat remained the same...yes slight increase in muscle mass but what the fuck 1kg increase in a week? ive got to be outta my mind.

and so this week i decided to change and switch things up a lil...going on a carb cycling program.by hook or by crook,im dropping my fat % to 17 %.

and who do i blame? no one else but my mother fucking self. everyonce inawhile,i lose control of myself,i fuck up my whole diet plan just by straying alil of course cuz i was lazy and i wasnt disciplined.

no one told me i had to go and prepare for this show,no one told me to spend 1k on substances,no one asked me to eat shitty things like chicken breasts ,its becuz i chse this path,a path many entered but never came out alive.and if i dont come out alive,ive only myself to blame for the inner demons that have consumed me along the way.

its time i reflect.

day 1

on work

work has been great,ive just quit my job as a cook at the handburger to concentrate fully on my competition.the pple there r really awesome...some being alil fucked up but most were great.im missing fox already,he taught me so much in the 2 mths ive been there.

on love

we,ve been awesome so far,ive got my pay and i bought her some amino tabs to take for training and a dress and i got an adidas pouch for training,totally love it.gona elaborate more whe i have the pics.

on life

well my parents just left for taiwan along with my granny and everything is left to my brother and me,hes out 3/4 of the day so im practically alone at home. washing the dishes,cooking my meals for the whole day,washing my clothes mopping the floor hanging the laundry....haha kinda enjoy doing it actually.cldnt go cuz i need to prepare for my comp

on training


well...had some fantastic meals the past few days...cuz i know..im not gona touch any more of those for3mths or maybe 6 mths if im going for nationals.today is day one of dieting and cardio,it feels great, to wake up at 830am cardioing at nine,coming home to cook my meals ,taking a nap and gona train again at 3pm.yea this is gona be my life for the next 12 weeks.

im paying my dues,working my fucking ass off ,i know its all gona be worth it.yea...at the very end of the day,the light at the end of the tunnel,we will see why we did this ....we arent going to be afraid to fall...cuz there in only one option...to take the stage with pride and gusto...with shock and awe ..with a bang.and yes....i do believe we do have what it takes....brandon and i...to be the best we gota train and diet to beat the best...and thats what we're doing...no such tihng as failure...

with each descent into the trenches ...with each descent with backk breaking workout and weights...i say hit us with everything you have....we aint gona break.