birthdays

yeap finally 19th now.and im proud to say its the best birthday ever.from last week tilll this week.i had been celebrating my dears bdae,mom and dads bdae and mine yesterday.wow im sure growing fat!

ive long awaited to spend my bdae with someone special.it never came.till this yr.and boy was it the best bdae ever.for my close friends.lets celebrate my post bdae the following week when we r all free...im sure it wld be fun!and thanks alot smelly for the slippers! i love em!

im glad to spend my bdae this year with my parents as ive not spend my bdae with them for the past 2 years.

last but not least my dear...o boy!

she bought for me 2 singlets from top man a s polo shirt from esprit with a total amt of 70 bucks ,she gave me estee lauders pleasures for man yesterday which cost 60 bucks.she came to my school after hers finished ,though we might have had some hiccups here and there,im glad it turned out to be a wonderful day!o and she brought me to one rochester...heard that?ONE FRIGGIN ROCHESTER for dinner.dinner cost her 90 bucks.and nots all can u believe it!?she brought me back to her hse and asked me to cut the brownie cake that she spent the whole afternoon making for me yesterday!and i received an angpow from her parents...

i seriously cant tell you how sweet of a gf i have.my whole family were shocked to hear the things that you did for me.

im thankful for the girl :

who wld always listen to me.

who wld cook for me at midnight when im hungry.

who who monitor my training and meals so closely.

who wld assist me in mypull ups in her sch or mine even when shes dressed to the nines.

who bothers to dress up for me every friday and sat.

who spent a bomb just for my bdae.

who spent the whole afternoon baking a cake for me.

who is ever so forgiving whenever i flare up.

who is unafriad to show her affection to me in her sch or my sch.

who loves me for who i am and always think im hot.

who supports me in everything i do.

who is there for me every second of my life.

you see...theres no need for you to feel inferior towards her.theres no way ever,she can compare herself against you.like i said she is pretty,but ure prettier.she being slim and hot?where alot of guys go after her everyday?u wanan be like tat?our rship wld suffer.i dont want that.u r already slim and i think u have the most beautiful body.not to mention ur heart....just filled with so much love...

no one can compare...period.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, MY LOVE !

Haaaaaaaaaaappy 19th Birthdaaaaaaay! (:
I hope you'll enjoy your day!
Yay!
I'm gna see you laterrr. and i can't wait ! :D
i love you, sweetpea.
<3

Will you say that sentence to me Everyday?

Boyfffff is sleeeeeeeping now !
Got off the phone with him not too long ago.
i miss him so much uhhhhh.
Nevermind, i'm seeing him laterrr~
(:
Anyway this smelly boy is so naughty !
I said i wanted 1000 roses & 1000 tulips.
Then he said he'll give me 1000 turnips.
Whoah, that made me laugh non-stop ! hahahaha.
my boyf is daaaamn cute luh (:
I don't think he's fierce at all. Haha !
Love my latest blog post ?!
Be honoured okaaaaaaay,
from the bottom of my heart alright! (:


lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelooooooove.
I LOVE YOU SUNSHINE!

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LOVE

argh...the past few weeks had been great.i cldnt ask for more.it had been one of the greatest hols since i get to spend it with her.she had been a great gf and she had been helping me out in my bodybuilding lifestyle both in training and some other stufff which its best not to be mentioned here.met her on monday at her sch,which was yesterday.got to spend a few hrs with her,she slept on my lap while i was doing my work in the library,it was pure bliss.thanks for accompanying me while i waited for ur brother.remember,you dont need to feeel inferior to her at all.like i said everyone is unique in their looks in their traits.yea she was pretty,shes hot ,she dresses skimpily ,many guys went for her even my closest friends and cousin.they all wanted to get into her pants.she did not support me in what i do,she made fun of my lifestyle.she wasnt an ideal gf.she wasnt someone i wld marry in future.it was really miserable when im with her cuz i never know what she was doing my back.

you?you are different.you are pretty as well .in fact i think ure way prettier than her.i know many guys who wanted to get with you you know who are they.zen,nic ,shawn and many others.they were disappointed when you chose me.i know there r many others that want to be in my position like you told me,the pple in ur sch who look at you...who give all their attention to you.not to mention there r some who want to get into ur pants too.im a guy i know that.

i used to be jealous and all.but i know i need not be cuz i know u r true to me .i know that i outbeat them interms of physical appearance (body and height not looks though) haha.its one thing that keeps me motivated in the gym to outdo myself ,cuz i know theres no way they can compare to me.

anyway,which girl wld wait for me for 9 hrs at my workplace,who wld accompany me to my workplace for my frist day of work...wait for me at the end of the day with food in ur hands and my protein shake worried that i did not eat enough.there r many other stuff that u did for me and i wanna say i really appreciate them.no one can compare to you.no way she can compare to you.i swear.

its just memories of you and me.beverly and myren not sarah and me.ok?

TRAINING


it feels good to slowly be putting back my own weight,gaining back my size.im glad to hear that hydher is gona hit the gym once again.its been awhile.when u left,i wasnt as motivated as i was when both of us were in the game.remember what u said to me?
i was the flawless sole example of hardwork, commitment, disipline, pain ,sacrifice and dedication ....and im going to bring it back.i miss the times when nth stood in our way,when felix u and me shaved our heads bald to signify a new era.we treated this as do or die.7 meals a day without fail.an hour late an we wld snap.no forms of entertainment such as drinking partying,or gaming.nth of that sort.

remember the times when we wld look at each other in the gym with that passion burning,though no words were exchanged,it was clear.we wanted the best out of each other.though we lived just blocks away,we were so caught up in our competition with each other that we did not meet up on weekdays.only on sundays,where we wld have the same meal tgt.salmon and rice.

now that ure back,its gona get going for me once again.next yr...its time to hit the stage.i knwo when we hit the stage next yr,all my brothers who r reading this.zen brandon hydher myself and others.i know when we hit the stage we wld make history not just marking time.i know we have what it takes to wow the audience...i have absolute confidence that each of us will be bagging a top 3 medal next year.shit...i mean the gold medal.no one trains for second.second is the first loser.everyone trains to win.lets uphold the glory once again.

it pisses the shit out of me when pple talk shit in the gym.u go there to lift not to preach ur nonsensical shit.i hear guys talking abt supplements and steroids and growth hormones like they know everything.well firstly,this things r meant to be kept in the dark,you dun talk abt it.next what u guys r saying r total rubbish.SHUT THE FUCK UP AND TRAIN.

pple who dont know me just like my buddy brandon and my gf.when they first trained with me.they were wondering i get so worked up when pple interupt in our programmes or talk shit.pple like felix and the rest knows why.some pple thinks we take this game too seriously.well let me tell you,you dont go balls out,someone else will.there is always someone who is going to come up stronger than you.never be complacent.

i hate pple who r nth but cock suckers,who suck up to those who r famous or bigger than them.to pple like roy ray rahim peter an tong and so on.they dont talk to minors like us unless we prove ourselves.i know it all too well.pple who never spoke to me think im some arrogant fuck with my dark glasses and someone who hardly speaks not even smiling to them.shit ,sometimes i dun even apologise when i bang into you in the gym,but thats the way i am.when im in the gym,i think of a few things.to rip apart the person who is standing between the mirror and me.i think about wowing the audience next year.i think about doing my friends gf and family proud next year.last but not least,i tell myself if i dont this rep or set,there will be someone out there wanting to beat my body and snatch my gf .no i cant let that happen.not till my body drops doing what i do.

till than

shut the fuck up and train.

Hearts to You, My Happiness Pill

This Darling of mine is at work now.

I hope his arm gets okay soon, he's always making me worried.

Anyway this blog is like my blog,

i'm always updating for him .

Tskkkk. He's like so lazy uh!

I miss him so much D:

However , i'm meeting him tmrrwww!

I'm so excited. I can't wait to see what he planned for me.

Whether it's big or small, it doesn't matter.

I'd still appreciate it, cause i know he loves me v much.

His workplace-

I'm feelin' so bored now.

Srsly, my grp mate pissed the shit outta me.

I wanna call my baby to complain,

but he can't pick up the phone ):

And baby,

if you wanna do it,

i won't stop You.

I will be the supportive girlf.

I won't be upset or angry.

But promise me, you'll take care of yourself.

I don't wanna ever lose you.
Haha ohkaaaaaaaaaay, i'm being so mushy.

Butbutbutbut, i really mean it alright ! (:

I keep replaying Yesterday! Smthg's very wrong with me :/

I MISS YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOU. Can't wait, can't wait, can't wait,can't wait for tmrwwww! :DD I would like you to sing to me, plssss (: HEEHEE.

Lovin' you every second.

trust me we went crazy during dinner...well...dearie knows what im talking abt..

2 top man singlets cost dear 29 bucks

this esprit shirt cost her 41 bucks...like omg la..

breakfast at my hse!

my scrambled eggs with mayo and parmessan cheese in garlic cheese bread!yummy!

after washing off the make up

the movie i watched with her...really unexpected twist!go watch it!

at her place!


at 80kg

hmm well honey waiting for me to post right?

haha finally since im not training today,i can post today.

gosh...last week was cool got to meet her 5 or 6 times...we did quarell here and there but somedays were really sweet.

ok.my bdae is coming up and this dear of mine bought for me some stuff which im still wondering what it is cuz i will only receive it on my bdae.we went ahopping on saturday and she spend 70 dollars on me...omg la...tell me....which gf is as sweet as this?

and sat night went for some fashion show with felix...goodness...striping to ur underwear and pple touching u all over was so...omg!not used to it.it was at this club called play....pay was 60 for a 20 mins show quite ok...good experience though...

yesterday,started my job at junxin rocky matsers..and sweety actually came down from sch to see me....she didnt even know whr it was and she walked under the blazing sun to find it...i totally appreciate it .gave her my staff meal ...glad she liked it..hah!

pple there r much betta than m hotel...thank god....

right! so looking foward to tmr!ill celebrate her bdae tmr!well pre bdae celebration that is!

woo!

You&Me-I'm holding onto You.

Sorry for making you do the most unreasonable stuff,
like singing to me in front of your parents.
Just wanted you to sing little wonders again,
cause i really love it.
I love you fav , really do.

Some pictures taken on Sat.










I can't wait to see you later(:
i need re-assurance from time-to-time.
but i know & i trust you .
I'll try not to have such thoughts in future.
I love you.


With Love,
Beverly-Yours.

Until all Our Strength is Gone

Here's all the kisses to yoooooooooooou~
The boy that makes me happy , (:


Brandon took an impromptu picture of me,
so i gave this stupid face.
haha i know i look retarded uh.
All the best for your stats paper later on okie!
Don't be nervous ,
and i know you'll do well! :D
I'm v proud of you (:
Thanks for everything , my love .
Couldn't ask for more <3

undeniable

just wanna say everything is ok now.

the moment i saw you,all i wanted to do was smile and let go of everything.

theres smth about you that makes it all so easy...especially the moment i see you.

just want to say ure like a dream come true.

the past 2 mths plus has been awesome though there are some up and downs.

yea when we quarell,life can really suck everything seems wrong in what we do.

but when we're happy tgt...it seems like you're all i need.

this mth will be awesome i know it.mom and dads bdae along with sweeties and mine!haha....4 bdaes this mth...

gosh this is gona be the greatest mth this yr...besides xmas.lets look foward to xmas.,..i know we can pull through strongly.

happy bdae to ur mom.

love u honey.

.

i dont know...

nth more i can say

you wanna stop wearing the earing?yea i wont lie to you.i feel hurt...what meant so much to us.its not that i dont wear it when im with youive been wearing it.i only took it out when i gymed with you.

if i knew this all wld happen,i wldnt even have gone all the way home from work just to get the earring before going to meet you.

yea sorry i took it all as a joke.i didnt literally mean what i say.yea i know you wld start commenting again.well i just wanna say im sorry.

ive apologised more than 10 times .if you are still upset,than theres nth more i can do.

reading that post in the morning...fuck that" made" my day alright.

alright,since i made you so upset.i wont post any comments anymore so that i wont accidentally upset you.

i know now ure going through that 7 day thingy...i know u will be more emotional.but hell.sometimes it gets out of hand.you were never like this last time either.

you say that i dont care as much as last time....is that ur assumptions or do you have evidence to justify that?

tell me when did i care less?

msg you after that?i msged you countless of times that im sorry,what i get is "i dont want to talk to you alright".and you still want me to msg you? you were the one saying stop it.its hard to read ur mind what u really want.

argh what a day.2nd day ruined. just great.

fuck la

its so hard to please everyone.

when my gfs upset,ill spend more time with er or ill talk to her on the phone and my parents will always say things about me.

i cant seem to make both parties happy at the same time.fucking dog unfair.

im 19 and i dont ahve my own room and privacy.when my brother talks on the phone ,my parents dun say anything.when hes back at 44 or 5 am in the morning they dun say anything.im 19 and when i talk on the phone for more than 10 minutes they will start to comment.

fucking irritated.its not that i dont love you guys...but you guys have to understand i have my own life to lead too....