Ain't nobody gonna treat me the way You do

Lazy boyf of mine take so long to update his blog,
so i shall do it for him:D
Pictures were taken from my blog (:
Yesterday was our second month.
and it has been so great, seriously !
I love you smelly ;D
Went to taka for delifrance ,
i treated my lover.
Cause he's always paying for stuff, so i shall pay once in a while! :D
After dinner, shopped around for my soft toy !
Settled down for Winnie the pooh (Winnie the Pear!)
Hehehehe.
Love it love it love it love it ! (:
It's so big and fat and yellow , just like my darling minus the fat a little.
HAHA.



















Fav bought me ice-creaaaaaam too!
Can't live without sweeeet stufff! (:

I'm at his house now,
and he cooked breakfast for me !
YUMMMMMMMMY!
He cooked scrambled eggs (my favourite), toasted bread with ham&cheese and garlic spread,
sausage and ice milo !
Omg so nice mannnn.
Tell me, where to find such a guy?
I just told him i haven't eaten breakfast and we went to buy the ingredients when i reached
and cooked for me !!
I LOVE YOU ALOT! :D
I'm gonna go spend time with my darling now,
more posts from me soon! Haha.
Hugs&kisses.

Fool for You

I can't stand this blog not being updated for like sooooo long !
ANNOYING.
Almost a week already !
HAPPY 2nd MONTH !
Yaaaay.
Just now SOMEBODY sang to me little wonders by rob thomas.
LOVED IT LOVED IT LOVED IT !
my fav is soooooo cute (:
I wanna upload pictures, but i'm lazy. hee :D
Can't wait to see this smelly boyf of mine later !!
LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU.
MY YOUNGER BROTHER LOVES YOU TOOOOOO.
I just love hacking into your account.
andandand,
i support you, now&always.
Jiayou !
I know it's your passion. (:
Sorry for the whinings,
and whatever stupid stuff i've been doing.
I want us to last tooooo :D
mwahhhhhs!
Happy 2nd month my smelly boyf!~

tired...

hey babe...dun worry i like pasir ris cause its really nice ...dont you think so?

it would be foolish on my part to think about someone who hurt me that badly.no one can ever compare to you.besides if you wanna say places that remind you of her and me...its marine parade not pasir ris.so dont you worry sweetheart.

gosh im just so tired...i really really feel dam tired..its only the first week of work and im already feeling so fucking tired.i really dont think i can handle everything....gosh...too many priorities.

anyway i just feel so grateful i wanna post this lyrics for you babe,cuz i totally feel it...thanks babe:

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love i found in youI'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all
You were my strength when i was weak
You were my voice when i couldn't speak
You were my eyes when i couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when i couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything i am Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand i could touch the sky
I lost my faith,
you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and i stood tall
I had your love i had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe i don't know that much
But i know this much is true
I was blessed because i was loved by you
You were my strength when i was weak
You were my voice when i couldn't speak
You were my eyes when i couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when i couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed

I'm everything i amBecause you loved me

the things you do never cease to make me happy

ah...back from my date with dear.

well lets talk about yesterday.babe came to my sch to meet me....well i got alil pissed off but it has nth to do with her.its just me.yea but im still grateful she came.and once again,someone said i looked dmall now,and babe heard it with her ears and was irritated.

well,right after she came over to my place and slacked awhile before i left for work.she accompanied me to my work place and left after i reported to work,and im really grateful for that.work was really busy and i meant fucking busy and i didnt even have a toilet break.fuckin hate work.i really appreciate brandon amanda and her for coming down to wait for me at work,and i guess it was her or brandon who bought for me some food and all,im really thankful either way.

went over to her hse to stay and you know what bev,im really grateful over the smallest things.i was really happy when you washed my container for me.thanks,and thanks for waiting patiently for me.

right this morning,we left to go over to my place b4 heading to the hotels gym.baby did exceptionally well..to the extent she nearly vomitted,thats how hard shes willing to push.im really proud of that.

afterwhich,we headed over to escape theme park and really had fun! though we had less than 1 and a half hrs to play,we had fun!!!we were running arnd like lil kids and sweating like crazy!baby was screaming on the pirate ship and inverter gosh she was so cute!...the pirate ship was scary cuz i was tall so it made me wanna fall off the freakin boat...but when im afraid ill keep laughing and thats what i did!lol....

gona go back there next month!

right after which went to the newly E HUB or smth like tat to have dinner.

in the train i made her upset cuz of my moods again..sigh..but thank god she was ok afer awhile.

overall...im really really happy today...just wish the day was longer.

well i just wanna say this dear,sorry that my mood is like tat...i cant seem to control my emotions sometimes...but im really sorry,i dont want you to make you upset anymore...ill try my best!and know that i love only you....yes only you.no more her or anyone else.next mth,we'll have a blast...you wont forget it im sure....

and i wanna say,you r really special and i really really treasure you and am lucky to have you as my gf...really really am.

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yesterdays post was from baby....anyhow hack my acct lol

well b4 i head for sch i just wanna say this...sry for the jealousy...

yea i know im the only one.... ;)

thanks sweets

BEVERLY SCREAMS LOVE

HELLO :D

Tsk. This blog is so dusty , needs some cleaning up! (:

And my baby's like so irritating now :O

Piccctures I editted! :D

Looooooooooves.

feeling beta!

just imagine i was still in srjc wearing this pe shirt...lol..







ok!

now that i feel betta i deleted the post and let me write a new one.

friday!met her at her sch and she wore the tshirt i bought for her! god she looks dam heavenly in it i swear!haha!

had some arguments which made me really upset but was ok after an hr or so.went for a play at rjc..support her friend...she was good!after which stayed over at her place..well it was unintentional..slept with yanger though lol..

we left her hse at 10am and came over to mine!after lunch we went to the gym...whr she did circuit training and interval cardio sessions.i must say shes pretty determined.well...she wants to have a beach girls body..i think shes hot already.but she wants to suntan with me...well u can do it anytime babe.

went for a swim right after gym at the hotel and god it felt great!had dinner before she left for her grandpas bdae bash.

overall we just want to live our lives...with no interuptions or unnecessary arguments cause we aint sure of the future...we cld be loveing today and gone tmr.we never know when each of us r gona die or when the world is gona end.

yesterday went well apart from the fact she had to leave early.

friday is the start of work...yay for the money boo cuz its a new enironment and i know its nth like rocky masters.i hope the customers and the staff r plesant..and i hope sweety will drop by one day at least for the first 2 weeks so working wont seem so stressful.seeing her makes everything go away...

when i work,i can save more hopefully $300 a month and the rest on entertainment and all.

till here guys..

love

woohoo

i feel betta after a gd nights sleep.

its great to know that at least manda and brandy r ok now..yea i did talk about you..but nv in the kind of harshness and intentions u did.but u know what,over the yrs ive learnt to be forgiving...i mean no one wants this to be a vicious cycle.ive experienced it b4...even after 3 and a half yrs...it came back..karma u wld say..

shes ok, hes ok...you're ok ...im fine with anything.

lets admit ,we have more impt stuff to do den be angry with each other..

happy happy happy that its gona be a long fucking long weekend! 4 days of fucking hols! mother die!

haha!

cant wait to start my job! den ill be getting close to 1k per mth! omg! im gona invest in endowment plan and all...set aside 400 for savings a mth and 500 odd for other stuff! more money to bring her out to funny fun places! woo!

sigh

now that im not fuming as much,i just wanna say,i love you,miss you and need you...

whats wrong

i know smths wrong...u nv sleep earlier that 1am...now ure telling me u wanna sleep early...

i somehow felt it in the way u msg me...

i didnt piss you off today...i thought everything was ok...

but it seems like....i dont know..reading ur blog post...

makes me think ...

it seems like u want some time alone...it seems ure really frustrated..r u giving up?

is there smth u arent telling me? again..

cool down

cooked for my family yesterday.buttter baked salmon stuffed with garlic and cheese with sweet spicy creamy linguine.im glad they liked my cooking...only that i put too much chilli and was sweating like a pig.

right went to do cardio right after before heading to sweeties hse.i was afraid that she was upset with me but the moment i saw her,i felt that she already had forgiven me...yea and i just wanted to hug her and tell her everything is ok.

and we did.

we spend some time talking things over and we wwalked arnd the neighbourhood before settling down for dinner.i dont know why but she kept laughing at my every moves .....like shes suffering from muscle spasms.lol

overall i had a great time

and i just wanna say...

thanks for being so ever forgivng and uve been the best gf ever..thanks for doing everything willingly with me.thanks for always being there for me..making me happy...making my life complete.

what happened to us?

before i put the lyrics for the song..

i just wanna say i just dont understand why you cant talk things out with me,i dont understand why its always when you feeel terribly upset before you tell me whats wrong ,than it wld be too late i dont understand why isit you dun share with me what ure unhappy about me..why isit you always have to go to her her and her? than tell me whats the use of a boy friend..

im not a machine,i dont change my personality overnight.ive been like this since i was born you cant change smth that is inherited to you overnight.i have changed many stuff for you,why cant you give me time for this one?i know i have been harsh on you the past few days...im sorry alright?i just wanted to spend more time with you.

i hope you can start confiding in me on what ure upset over ,let me know so i know im wrong.and not just your best friend.like i said im not ur bf for nth...have you thought about how i felt?how wld u feel if i never ever confided in you and only my best friend?wld you like it?






I thought it was too good to be true
I found somebody who understands me
someone who would help me to get through
and fill an emptiness i had inside me
but you kept inside and I just denied
some things that we should have both said
I knew it was too good to be true
cause i'm the only one who understands me

what happened to us
we used to be so perfect, now i'm lost and lonely
what happened to us
I know deep inside I wonder did i lose my only


remember we thought they we were too young
to really know what it takes to make it
but we had survived off what we have done
so we could show them all that they were mistaken
who would have known the lies that would grow
until we could see right through them
remember they knew we were too young
we still don't know what it takes to make it


I could have made it work, I could have found a way,
should have done our best to see another day
but we kept it all inside until it was too late
and now we're both alone with the consequence we pay
for throwing it all away

joy and sadness

finally get to meet my baby yesterday.met her after school and she was happy with the shirt i bought her.

however we did have some tension at orchard,and at night.well its me.i was insensitive and i was selfish cuz i wanted to spend time with her,i was upset she had to go home early 3 times in a row for 3 weeks...cuz there were many things i wanted to do with her,many places i want to bring her to....but than again...she cant be blamed for going home early...afterall im just her bf....

i must start to be understanding and calm like brandon.i want to be her best bf...even if we were to break off next time,i want her to remember the things i did for her and all...and that no one is comparable to me.

of cuz im not even wishing for that to happen...

i guess i love her too much.

i made her cry last night...for the first time...

and im sincerely sorry ..

we're ok today..and we had fun today...gymming together and all...she went off early but its ok...i got to see her..and im seeing her tmr...i told her i wanna start meditating...so i can cool myself and become someone who doesnt show his temper..

anyway just wanna let you know bev that ure a great spotter in the gym...and u r pretty motivated to get inshape...i love that attitude :) dun worry u will get that body and u can go suntanning with me anytime soon...u already can love...

i cant wait to swim with you in 2 weeks time!after gym church den enjoy ur companionship in the pool,afterwhich we cld probably sit at the bar...that wld be a perfect night...

i wonder when we cld go to downtown east to enjoy the theme park entertainment and dinner after that...gosh..it wld be great...

once again...sorry my dear abt yesterday...

sigh

*laughs* im such a lucky boy,sigh....



我会加倍努力好好对你永远不改变

babyyy

arghh....yea we had some tension yesterday and the day b4...and it was my fault..this time its becuz of sarah again...its cuz i kept mentioning abt her.my bad..im truly sorry...i wont talk about her ever again...i dont miss her...cuz i need some form of affection to do that but i have none.

baby came over and she wore my moms clothes and shoes to gym with me.she spotted me and trianed arms and legs and did some cardio.god seeing her train...its the most beautiful thing ive ever ever seen in this world...her pressence beside me kept me going..pushing and pushing...ive lost a significant amt of strength but her pressence alone made up for it...:)

went to her hse to say the rosary with her family and all ,i was happy very happy that i cld share such a beautiful process with her and her brother and her family.

another 5 days b4 i cld see her again...hope i get my allowance by than so i cld pay weihao back and have all the fun in the world!!!!!

If There Was A Single Day I Could Live,
A Single Breath I Could Take,
I'd Trade All The Others Away.

The Blood's On The Wall,
So You Might As Well Just Forget It.
And Bleach Out The Stains,
Commit To Forgetting It.
You're Better Off Empty And Blank,
Then Left With A Single Pathetic Trace Of This.

Smother Another Failure
Lay This To Rest

Console Yourself,
You're Better Alone,
Destroy Yourself,
See Who Gives A Fuck.

Absorb Yourself,
You're Better Alone,
Destroy Yourself.

I'll Chain You To The Truth,
For The Truth Shall Set You Free.
I'll Turn The Screws Of Vengence,
And Bury You With Honesty.

I'll Make All Your Dreams Come To Life,
Then Slay Them As Quickly As They Came,

Smother Another Failure
Lay This To Rest

Console Yourself,
You're Better Alone,
Destroy Yourself,
See Who Gives A Fuck.

Absorb Yourself,
You're Better Alone,
Destroy Yourself.

See Who Gives A Fuck.

Failure.

If There Was A Day I Could Live,
If There Was A Single Breath I Could Take,
I'd Trade All The Others Away,
I'd Trade All The Others Away.

thanks baby

yesterday,she came over to my place..

o and she accompanied me willingly to mecure hotels gym to watch me train..she sat patiently watching me and spotting me when i cldnt push any furthur...she sure was a great spotter!thanks baby! u dont know how much i appreciate it ..its my dream ;).

sat gona hit the gym with her..

watched tv..did a lil jigsaw puzzle and had dinner at my place.

afterwhich met roy and his gf,ray and his gf,vincent and his gf,brandon and his gf at cine to watch iron man.

the show was nice...but at the end...i lost my wallet..

again..fucking shit...

today my org com teacher said u coomit a mistake once its ok,twice a fool..im like 3 times leh?my mother die ar? lol...

she was so cute...give others to choose but chose a topic for me to present cuz she say i look like the clubbing kind..im like...EH WHAT!? so not true...whenever she talk about bouncer she look at me,and ill look away...lol..

i disliked her at first got she marked me..but i guess im getting into her good books cuz i guess the other pple in class just cant speak english fluently for some reason...

ok....back to the topic..of cuz i was pissed..i was verrryyy fucking pisssed ,i didnt wanna show it but i cant help it.

it ruined my fucking day.my picard wallet which i bot it during new yr with my red packet money..i lost the receipt to babys present,i lost the picture baby luminated and gave me..i lsot my cali card,my bank card,my muay thai card..and the rest of my allowance...

den baby gave me a hug...it helped alot..she changed coins for me to go home..she placed 50 dollars in my hand and smiled...saying u need this..i hope im of some help..

u dont know how happy that made me..baby thanks for being there for me when im down always cheering me up...i appreciate it..i really do...

yesterday,baby and i came across the link of sarahs blog..i read it..fragments of it..and i realise smth i didnt put into the relationship that she wanted..it was trust..it was becuz i didnt trust her one bit thats why we quarelled so much...each post she asked me to trust her more...not that it matters anymore..but this rship..im gona put this element into it...and hopefully...a beautiful concoction will form for a very very long time...

she assured me yesterday and time again...she'll nv leave me for another guy..

guess ill take her word ,i wont care what others say for now :)

-im everything i am becuz you love me-