yea baby!

woo!

feels good to sleep for 12 hrs again,to eat rubbish!haha..put on one kg..of fats of cuz..been eating crap..

so after gym todai,tim,brandy,mao ,weihao and me went down to bxg fitness.weihao and me went to look around the place,seem pretty hardcore,no aircondition,quite a few punching bags the smell of thai oil plagues the air ,a ring and more punching bags on the upper level.

the people there were really fit,with hard kicks planted on the punching bags,they meant business!all of them were shirtless and some with tattoos!sexy i say!

sexy mia trains there too..woo!

so both weihao and me signed up ,classes commences on monday,gona get my hand and ankle wraps together with my muay thai shorts tmr.

fucking excited!but im gona be slow ..at least thats what i predict..cuz im not very light..lol...

here we go baby! lets kick some ass!

yee haw..

nth much to update ..but ill keep my blog alive..im currently weighing in at 85kg from 92kg,but looking way better with no drop in measurement of any bodypart except my waist.from the last notch of the belt to the 4th last...impressive !hah!

sbbf screwed the whole fucking thing..which means ..no confirmed date of comp.says its in august..means i have to chem till august..sheesh my body is gona die man..

but even so at least im gona maintain my abs and condition till comp day..actually im gona look this way for the rest of my life ..i hope!maintain after comp..

somehow im having second thoughts on comp man...reason being..i wanna get my tattoo!ha!if i dun compete my dad wun do a body check on me...so i can hide it for awhile...i really wanna get a fuckin full sleeve tat..but ill probably be disowned like how my cousin was last week..not that she had a full sleeve tat though...

probably gona have one on my chest or back ...

know what so many things i wanna do with my body...not only piercings..but trust me i will get em done..its just a matter of time..once i set my mind on smth..im gona get it no matter the cost or pain.so really..i seldom set my mind on things..what they will be..you will soon find out..first of all i wanna get my tat done ..that strikes one off the list...now,im probably gona draw a small amt of my monthly allowance say 50 bucks and lock it up...till i hit like 500 bucks! i'd betta start thinking of a nice design!

tired..

third week of dieting..still learning through trial and error..been going well but still way from being satisfied.

been training intensely..on low carbs..one piece of sweet potato the size of ur palm is all i have before training..training frequency had increased from 45 mins to almost 2hrs per session.

got a problem with water retention and alil on the lower abdomen area.though my plan was to do cardio 3 times a week,ive only being twice ..that i guess is the reason why my plans aint going as ive planeed it to be.

weight is 85kg right now..down by 7kg.in 3 weeks..not too bad..my face is slimming down together with my body..finally..thank god..lol.

today..met up with felix dexin and dorcia.not seen them for like 3 years plus.everytime i see each of em,reminds me of sarah..was pretty quiet from beginning to end ,felix was doing 80 percent of the talking.i was just kinda spaced out.been spaced out for a couple of days .was hungry pissed that my chicken wasnt cooked properly..so i was eating medium rare chicken for two fucking meals..

weihao dun be upset,im sure it aint that bad for her to club.its just an experience..just tell her u dun wish for her to visit it anymore in the future.remember..posessiveness brings you nothing.

right just wanted to show you the progress on my body so far..

the picture on the abs..ive yet to bring them out ..make em pop out..
taken a week and a half ago and today.

the back double taken almost 2 mths back and a week ago.

i know there really isnt anything much to be proud of but yea..

will update in another 2 weeks..

cny

past few days had been fun.but...i only visited one house.my relatives came thrice.thank god im too tired too move.last night was kinda memorable..invited hydher over to my hse,wanted to call felix but he aint free.

anyway..hydher and the rest were sitting infront of me eating satay and steamboat and all that shit,i really wanted to throw the food away!!!all i cld do was stare and smell.afterwhich ,both of us went down and made some rockets.haha,dam the thing actually flew!thank god it stopped just before hitting the cars,i made mine,lit it up and accidentally toppled it over and it was facing us!we ran and hid like mad dogs..lolright now the void deck is vandalised cuz of us lol...

went up and gathered with my witty,pretty and funny cousins.played some weird card game but was really fun!everyone was lauginh at me for my slow reaction time...and i nearly lost...but i didnt!hydher played the second round and got stuck cuz of all the hokkien food names..lol..ive got to say what weird names we had...chicken rice mai kacheng...?!so he lost and got his hair tied up by joyce.

seriously,it was fun and we were really fuckin noisy i think the police might arrive any minute.

as i was eating my breakfast this morning,i was thinking abt it,what felix or weiliang said was true.what happened to me might actually be karma.i didnt understand why she did those things to me.looking back,i broke up with her without any reason.just because i was insecure ,cuz there were 8 others going after her.but i didnt clarify myself or talked to her about it,i just broke up with her.twice infact cuz of this.she was left in the daark wondering what she did wrong,crying everyday,i was her world back than ,but i didnt care,i treated her like dirt sometimes.i would hang up on her whenever i needed to do my work,ignore her for weeks cuz we had misunderstandings and all..almost cheated on her once...

now it all comes back to me...she was my world,she dumped me for no apparent reason and cheated on me.thank god ,it happened on my first week of dieting,thank god it didnt fdrag on for months of i would feel even more devastated.perhaps it was karma,but it was fair to me cuz i learnt my lesson and it ended at the appropriate time.

alot i wanna say..but

yea alot i wanna sae,but im so worn out.ill just type briefly.

right firstly,i had a body evaluation by roy and ray on sunday.well ,they said not much of a progress,cuz of my one cheat meal per week.so ive totally got to remove that,and cut off carbs after 6pm. yesterday i tried cutting off carbs since 4pm,and fuck was i pissed off easily..i get pissef off cuz the bus ride was long..cuz pple were wealking too slowly...and stuff like that.

so my meal goes like this:

meal 1:brown rice + 10 egg whites

meal 2:sweet potatoes + chix breasts

meal 3:brown rice + chix breasts

meal 4: brown rice + chix breasts

meal 5:chix breasts+broccoli

meal 6: fish

secondly what else is irritating me is pple keep telling me that they need to get big asap,or within 2 months...and they turn to me for chemicals.firstly,they have no knowledge on whatsoever they plan to take...secondly they think that by taking chems they grow twice as fast or what ever...well fuck you .thats all i gotta say.when i tell em they gota eat alot..and i mean bodybuilders food,they say they dun have the determination,when i say you gotta carry all out to failure,they say they do,but its like...half of the effort that we usually put in..and they have excuses of not training cuz of exams and all...and they tell me they r gona compete in what shit fuck competition next yr or whatever..like what brandon said,practice what you preach..if u dun,dont bother talking to me.

i mean come on,firstly if you dare mention the word no determination to me,talk to my hand.next,its a 24/7 thing,its a marathon not a sprint.last but not least,the chemicals will do shit to help you ,if you're giving me this shit attitude.

im helping all my bodybuilder friends say this ,i dun care which tom dick and harry gets insulted by reading this..fuck care you.

some pple are so random,telling me dun ever come into their life again when i did nth wrong,no not her.right now,all i can say,im so tired from all the lack of food,all i can say is...neither do i need pple like you in my life.one more burden off my list.

its been only 2 weeks and my mood is starting to have ups and downs...so..just dun do or say stupid things to me if you dun wish to be fucked in the ass.

next off,wanna wish all my friends celebrating v day soon..hope everything goes well!haha..and to you guys out there,diet hard train hard.no "what ifs".this is it...last 86 days.