selfishness

selfishness.i said it before i said it again.to go far in whr u are.its all about being selfish,self centered.i nearly lost myself by focusing too much on other priorities last time.but now,its all about me.in my 4 yrs of nt being in a rship,i went far...from being any normal kid around the block to pple recognising me for what i do ,watching me wherever i go what i do what i eat.take for an example my new class.they stare whenever i take my chix breast and brown rice out and stare practically throughout the whole time im eating.i dont care.i dont care everytime i eat my meals at the crowded sch canteen sitting alone and everyone who walk past giving curious looks.i dont care when pple look at me like im a poor fuck as i sit on the flight of stairs eating my meal looking downright pathetic.cuz as pple start to know me,or even those that dont,they will start convos with me...recognising me for what i do."hey ,ure the guy that always eat at the staircase alone right?"fuck yea,that's me.

jsut a few days ago,i was training at marine parade cc gym.did some heavy duty training,dipping with 2 plates hanging down my back.curling weights i nv curled.as i took a rest,some guy came up to me to ask me about his chest programme,what he shld incorporate,how to train his arms,how to get traps like mine.shit ,he even follows what i do.he thinks whatever im doing is correct.i didnt drink even a sip of water during my whole training,and he thought that by doing that it wld be more effective.gosh i laughed to myself.its just becuz i nv brought my bottle thats all.o and before i knew it,after talking to him guiding through his shrugs,half the gym started doing shrugs.haha. god like.

meals,fuck others who think ure too troublesome or think ure such a wetblacket whenever u have to eat when ur times up.they say things like everytime we do smth u have to eat ur meals,it gets irritating.fuck that.when we have to eat we have to eat.

my girl wants me to spend more time with her.its not that i dont want.but i have so many things to juggle,and shes always saying i put bodybuilding before her,its always abt bodybuidling,and when wld i ever cherish her.i do cherish her.just that no matter what i say,i cant seem to make u or for a matter of fact,others around me understand that is aint a sport,its a lifestyle.u dont just train hard in the gym and thats it.no...its way beyond that,its what you do beyond the gym ,what you do way beyond the comp day that determines where u place on that faithful day under the spotlights.this game is not won on that day but the days that lead up to it.my parents cldnt understnad,but now they do.i dont expect u or others to.i dont care whether u do or not either.

selfishness is required of you to strive in this game.its said many times before.this game aint for pussys or lover boys who just go to the gym to build arms and chest .this game is for those that r willing to sacrifice,to push way beyond the pain during the last reps of training,its for those that r nt afraid to let others stare at you in the things you do,its for those that r willing to take the lonely road to be named a loner for those that are not afriad to lose everything else just to get to the top alone.its a one man game . so for those lover boys who just want to impress the chics a big middle finger in ur face,i will show you no fucking respect.