joy and sadness

finally get to meet my baby yesterday.met her after school and she was happy with the shirt i bought her.

however we did have some tension at orchard,and at night.well its me.i was insensitive and i was selfish cuz i wanted to spend time with her,i was upset she had to go home early 3 times in a row for 3 weeks...cuz there were many things i wanted to do with her,many places i want to bring her to....but than again...she cant be blamed for going home early...afterall im just her bf....

i must start to be understanding and calm like brandon.i want to be her best bf...even if we were to break off next time,i want her to remember the things i did for her and all...and that no one is comparable to me.

of cuz im not even wishing for that to happen...

i guess i love her too much.

i made her cry last night...for the first time...

and im sincerely sorry ..

we're ok today..and we had fun today...gymming together and all...she went off early but its ok...i got to see her..and im seeing her tmr...i told her i wanna start meditating...so i can cool myself and become someone who doesnt show his temper..

anyway just wanna let you know bev that ure a great spotter in the gym...and u r pretty motivated to get inshape...i love that attitude :) dun worry u will get that body and u can go suntanning with me anytime soon...u already can love...

i cant wait to swim with you in 2 weeks time!after gym church den enjoy ur companionship in the pool,afterwhich we cld probably sit at the bar...that wld be a perfect night...

i wonder when we cld go to downtown east to enjoy the theme park entertainment and dinner after that...gosh..it wld be great...

once again...sorry my dear abt yesterday...