lallala!

yesterday is my one mth!haha!

nv clebrated one month in my past relationship but it was fun!haha!

met her at yck mrt..den we chilled at my place..GOD I FEEL SO ASHAMED! haha..i gave her a card and a small pendent but she gave me a card,an expensive earing an adidas tshirt and a photo frame...sheesh!thanks anyway..i love all of them!

my mom seem pretty shocked at all the gifts she gave me haha!!!

so i decided to bring her to cafe oliv...to have dinner..glad sahe enjoyed the ambience and food there!

after which we chilled at ecp gosh it was so fun!enjoyed the breeze while i almost fell asleep ...oh not mentioning the bus ride home...both of us were so tired we fell asleep and i guess we ended lup like display items...according to baby man ypple were looking..HAHA! who cares!

well i dun have many pictures ...so i took them from babes blog!

well i was practically acting retarded yesterday...as you can see from my pics...haha..seriously was behaving like some retard!


taken on brandons bdae!










one of babys gift to me





smiling with my teeth..first time in my life..baby made me do it!

honeymoon weekend

just came back from babys hse...today is brandys bdae!flower ,amanda came....i kinda think bev and brandys mom is quite nice...

right so yesterday,met her at orchard mrt..she paid for the tickets to the hottie and the notti...it was a nice show!!!funny and touching and romantic...

thanks sweetie!

baby looked prettty yesterday...

we went to suntec's sky garden to chill ..it was pretty nice ..only if there was somee breeze...

well..today went to honeys hse in the morning..spend some quality time tgt and it was ...it felt so greatttt seeing her falling asleep on my arms!!!

nothing more i cld ask for....

wth la..time just flew like that!

argghhh! next time i wld see her is weds ...OUR FIRST MONTH!!!!argh! cuz im so broke...i wld have to cook for her...goshhhhhhhhh!hope she likes it..and hope i whip up smth good....

baby i cant wait!!!!!

im sorry

i read ur post baby..im sorry...

of cuz i know how it feels to feel that way...thats how im feeling now...im really sorry sorry sorry to let u worry and all.baby i realise im wrong and ive not been a gd and understanding bf ...ive been making things for u difficult..

i promise you i wont give u the cold shoulder anymore..at least ill try my very very best ok?i was having doubts too...after thinking and thinking...i decided what the fuck was i thinking..i went to parkway to get u a flower and went all the way to ur hse just to place it at ur doorstep...do know that i truly want this to last and i truly truly love you...

anything to please you and make u smile dear...anything..

sorry dear...

i cant wait to meet you on friday..

hehehe

argh...finally the starting of school tmr.im excited cuz i promise myself baby and my parents i will mug hard this time..aiming for a gpa 3 and above...nothing is impossible..

ar...got to spend friday and sat with sweets..dam happy...she came over...watched tv ,cooked for her,spend some quality time tgt and went to the beach for awhile.its so good to see my family liking her so much...everyone think shes a sweetie...haha...yea i think so too...

argh...friday b4 i cld see her...fasterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr passssssssssssss!

sorry..

sorry baby that i acted so coldly this morning...well there are just some things girls just dont seem to understand,brandon and weihao knows me best,they know what im talking about...you cant help but feel pissed and worried..

overall,yesterday was a fun day,a much aniticipated honeymoon weekend!haha!met het at nyp den to orachard where she chose for me a shirt and all the weird pple kept staring ...lol

had a fun time with her at gloria jeans b4 meeting up with rach,indra nana and josh than headed down to starbucks to chill.

stupid me...i always get so excited i cant seem to keep surprises...lol..but that smile on her face was worth the spoiler though...lol

i promise ill talk to you abt it later on k?i guess one thing about me thats gona be hard to change is my feeling of insecurity .saying that i will change is one thing,it will definitly take time..i mean a long time b4 i can change my opinion on rships..you wont understand cuz you have to be in my shoes before to know why i feel like this..i hope you understand..

i cant just be like my other friends who has the mentality saying if she likes another guy than ok lor break lor..no big deal,not like i dont have other girls to choose from not that other girls dun like me.no...i dun think that way cuz i want this to last ,i dun just live by the moment..i think ahead...

i guess this is the beginning of rship problems to come...but im sure we can get through all of em..

-through thick and think,we'll get through every obstacle,i promise-

timetable

hmm im happy and not happy with my timetable..haha

basically monday i end at 4pm when i only have 4 lessons..and 3 hrs of break inbetween..like a total waste of time yo..and becuz of that i cant go for muay thai..shucks!

tuesday..end at 6...happy cuz i got public speaking as my elective!woohoo!can brush up on my english,confidence and all..

weds is totally slack haha! 2 lessons and i end at 1pm!muay thai! haha! baby ends at 1 too...maybe i cld drop by her sch and have lunch ,spend an hr or 2 b4 gg for muay thai..

thursday im gg to have aproblem cuz its like 5 hrs of lesson..need to plan my meals..damn..

friday its 2 lessons not including public speaking slack day too! haha

weds and friday is awesome!friday can meet baby at sch den head out!

last night was the first time i called baby and talked to her...felt dam happy hearing her voice haha! cant tahan 5 days not hearing that voice..


lalalla!

one more day!

all smiles

(missing you)

argh!what a great day it was yesterday!besides the pain of course!

speaking of the pain..argh..woke up only to find dried up blood...

trained at home today as i cant stand not doing any physical activites..trained naked..and i mean literally naked in my brothers room..lol..no choice..

well,wanna thank my bro for taking the trouble to help me buy groceries,thanks lix for coming all the way down to help me buy my groceries too..

after preparing for an hr or so..baby came down to my place.slept on her lap for awhile b4 cooking dinner..haha it was nice anticipating my bro awaiting dinner!

it was a nice feeling to have baby stand next to me through the whole dinner prep..wiping my perspiration and all..i cooked seafood carbonara fettucine along with baked salmon.overall my grandma bro and baby loved it... my bro said its one of the best dish he had tasted,well i think hes nuts,lol..it was nice to see my grandma and bro interacting with sweets.. :p

afterwhich baby insisted that she help me with the dishes..was only happy that she did cuz i had alottttt to wash..she helped me rinse them while i washed them and she helped me dry the dishes and put them back to whr they were...if my parents were home,they definitly wld love her!my bro thinks that its rare to find such a sweet girl..well bro ure right..i think so too!

i duno,i just think time passes so fast when im with her,a blink of an eye and its time for her to go back.sheesh..

out from training,gona shrink even more but its ok.just have to work hard for a month and ill get everything back..ill rest one more week...

o and hope lix gets that girl soon ;p

too bad i have no photos to show u..

o and thanks alot for the laminated photo sweets i love it!

this had been the besttest holiday i ever had ,all thanks to sweeets..!

to liang,

hey sweets,if ure reading this,i wanna apologize that ive not been there for you the past 2 weeks.i didnt know what u had been gg through till you told me yesterday.i really want our friendship to be like before,that we're still close and we can talk abt any thing under the sun,staring at chicks legs..(not anymore) ,talk about our future and all the problems .i still remember you and max trying to cheer me up and wake me up when sarah did those stuff to me,i remembered i wld cry at ur hse while sleeping..but u were there..and the latest incident,u were there as well...i also wanna be there for you,im sure ur appeal will work.i dun want to be like the rest of my buddies whr they forget you after a rship.cuz i dun want you to do that to me to.but do understand that i have many many commitments right now.i have other friends to meet up soon it will be you,got gym trainng,muay thai training and her to meet up with ,so def ill meet u less frequently,but i will.

dun wry aight my buddy?

argh fuck me

so happy..this weeek finally got to spend some quality time with sweets...monday saw her for 3 mins,tuesday 2 hrs,and weds 2 mins...gosh,if only we stayed nearer...

took her down to pasir ris park and god i saw her..wth man...fking coincidental..

baby looked gorgeous yesterday..she always does haha..

cabbed home but i cld see her dad waiting outside..obviously for her and can see he was pissed..im sorry baby for all the trouble you went through yesterday..it was becuz i brought you home 15 mins late and you got scolded like shit..sorry!

argh fuck me sideways..i can hardly walk properly,i cant even sleep sideways..doctor said it was pretty bad..you shld have seen the look on his face..he was like how did.....till like tat...

i had some painkillers and some antibiotics for it but the painkillers were useless,didnt even help one bit,as i was bathing i kept punching the wall as the water touched it..it hurts like nth else..i rather get 10 kicks on my body than have this pain,ill beout of muay thai and gym traiing for a week,for he said it wld take a week for the pain to go away..one week of rotting at home and not being able to see her..so gona die..gona rot my last week of hols doing nth..

its not ur fault honey..really..

baby love you..cant wait to see you latr..

happy!

woke up today..and just felt in a good mood!partly cuz my good friend was sleeping beside me,partly cuz the weather was really cooling,and im seeing her tmr. :)

well,first thing when i woke up,i decided to cook for my parents and grandma breakfast.tuna and egg quezadilla..a simple yet tasty dish..and my dad said he wants to adopt some of my ideas if he opens another food drive thru at australia.

speaking of this,during breakfast,my dad said after army,most probably we wld be gg over to australia if im gona go for my studies and all..meaning in the next 4 yrs,my parents r gona invest and all to save as much $ and all..maybe we're gona start a new life over there...excited!

like brandy said,he wants me to not only treasure bev but my family.it was great seeing the smile on my parents and grandmas face,as if saying after all these yrs its worthwhile...though i was emotionless as usual,i was happy inside and i cant wait to see the smile on babys face too..hope she likes it too..

offered to wash the dishes and all..just a small part on the household chores,slowly i wanna take over and do most of it if i have the time...

god i left those pictures of baby and me on the com table and my dad and mom kept singing some stupid love song and kept smiling at me from yesterday night till i was cooking breakfast for them this morning..haha! bugger!

baby,ure gona love me sooo much more when u c ur surprise on ur bdae!haha..gosh..yesterday alone i spent..like..150 dollars now i have to stinge like shitttt cuz im left with so little for my allowances like pratically i cant eat out this month...plus my muay thai fees and protein..goodness..

now im gona train at raffles ...so im not gona drop by kallang for a looooong time!lol..gona miss the pple there...

alright...one more day b4 i cld see her face again..cant wait!!!

love ya sweets.

glad its all over.

had a misunderstanding between baby and me the past few days.she was pissed with me and i was afraid it will all end like that.yesterday,went down to find her after work,yea saw brandy and amanda,and panda gave me an attitude,i wasnt very happy but like brandy said...anger management! haha...so i kept quiet..im not suprised that she is angry with me either,its her best friend shes worried about.

cooked for baby lunch and delivered to her,glad she liked it.just went grocery shopping to see what i cld cook for her.yea and i thought of another 4 dishes that i cld cook for her.its all very simple though.

today went for my muay thai lesson,finally moved on to a higher level..intermediate now..and god there wasnt sparring today but the teacher did not let us off.he pushed and i pushed my endurance to the limit...i swear if i went on for another 5 mins i wld faint..my friends said halfway during training my face was pale as a sheet of paper and i better take a rest...

skipping and non stop pad works and bag works for the next 1 hr 15 mins with 1 min rest for 3 intervals..got a slight cut on my upper eye lid and my contact lenses fell off so i had to train with one side..got brusies on my shin and my forearms..haha..i looked good!

shes gg for her orientation tmr and friday..well i have no doubt that many guys will ask her for her number and try to be close with her and all.but you know what,i cant be who i was,i have to change,to have an open mind ,be understanding and i have to trust her,as much as i want her to trust me.if she chooses to go with someone else...nth i cld do..its her wish...but for now,lets just take things as it is.

brandons right,i have to control my inner rage,stop scolding my grandma,start believeing in god and learn to control my emotions just like you brandy..

had some issues at the hospital,wasnt happy with what i heard.fuckin bitch.

well sweets..i cant wait to see you on sat..

lovin you

you leave me breathless..

;p

so happy!

yesterday morning,woke up at 7am and prepared my food to meet sweetie ,amanda and brandy..met at 1145 at habour front mrt,first step i took as i exited the mrt,i nearly slipped and fell,the lady beside me looked at me as if saying "eh! dun fall,if not have to waste money repairing the floor!" haha jking...but yea i laughed at myself..lol

went to sentosa and dam i got burned under the unhot sun...wtf right..

walked along the shores with sweetie and sat on the beach for a couple of hrs...left at roughly 4pm as the clouds came in...

after dinner,we chilled at sky park .than i got my mood swings,and i left baby really upset and confused...i was so sorry..thank god she was ok after awhile.promise you i will tell you whats wrong next time sweets..

after which i called my parents to tell em i wld be staying at brandys and babys hse.and my dad made me laugh on the phone again...bugger..lol..

afterwhich we tried means and ways to bruise my shin...im lazy to explain why..but its was really retarded..

it felt soooo great...holding her in my arms in the morning,and seeing brandy holding mdanda too...i wished ..i hoped we cld stay this way till morning but they had to sleep in their rooms...time flew..like an hr plus just passes like tat...nearly feel asleep in her arms..

it was great hearing she skipped work today,so we cld spend more time tgt..though we spend like more than a day with each other,it just wasnt enough...it didnt even feel like it was a day...

baby come over to my place soon again yea?dam sch is gona start for her and me...and like only a week plus b4 we have to go back to sch.i hope we cld see each other as often as possible b4 sch starts...whr i cld only meet her up like 2wice a week or so..

-you leave me breathless,i still cant believe you're mine-

weeppe yeah!

so happy!

just awoke had my bf...now im blogging

met sweets at noon yesterday.

caught bucket list at cine,with only a handful of pple in the cinema,so we cld let our imagination run wild...haha jking !what were u thinking!tsk tsk!

lol

went over to star bucks,friggin busy and noisy,went off after a short while,sweets insisted on coming over..didnt have a choice but to bring her home to my messy place.she seems to love the breeze and scenery though.

my mom thinks she looks like jessica..which is a serious compliment i tell you!my grandma thinks she aint chinses..wow!i think my mom likes her and she likes my mom too haha! my mom was pretty nice to her though,its great to see them both smiling heartedly..my bro likes her too..

i made my dad laugh with what i told him yesterday lol...he laughed till he choked on his food...and that was when i laughed..lol..he kept disturbing me till today...bugger!

still wondering if i shld go for muay thai..my brusises still hurt like shit..

guess im gona hit the gym with sweeties brother and den go over to her place..

hope ure feeling alright! so sorry to hear abt ur aches..