waiting for you sweets

brandz came over to my hse to stay over last night..had a chat at starbucks,below my hse with liang,and caught a movie at my place and we freaking hell slept at 4am..lol

crap la,my shins bruised till today..freaking hell..but ill still go for training later la..no choice.what doesnt kill you only makes you stronger.

argh...and both of us miss the both of em sooo much!! till today i just think its so cool! 2 bestie friends in love with another 2 bestie friends,and those 2 best friends went away on the same day,and coming back on the same day too! haha!

one more day before she comes back..cant wait luh!!!

as i was sitting on my bed this morning,i thought to myself..what do i want in this coming rship,how do i want it to be diff from the rest,how it cld be a much improved one,a more stable and smooth one.

and so these are the factors that ive listed out ,factors that ive never shown in previous r ships..

1) communication: something that ive been laggin in not only in terms of relationship.the past 2 had been a total failure due to the lack of communication.

2) trust:this was smth i didnt show at all in my previous.cuz she was pretty,cuz there were many guys after her,cuz she was always out with the guys.that was the downfall that lead to revenge this year.this time,its the same,shes pretty,alot of guys after her ,if im gona let the lack of trust affect my r ship,i might as well not start in the first place,if she had chose me,she will stick by it and so will i.

3) faith:something i didnt have at all.we must have faith that this will work out,we must want it so bad it becomes a need.

one thing that brandon agreed i shld change abt myself is..my temperementalness.sometimes it just gets out of hand.i get pissed by the slightest things in life,one min im smiling at home or at the gym,the next minute my face is just pure black,like im gona kill someone.brandon knows it best...change it baby!

was talking to sequeena and brandz yest,and i voiced out my concern on the new sch she is gg to..im bound to face lotsa competition,well she told me one thing,if im gona let my "old jealous"self repeat history,dun start in the first place.if she chose me,she will stick with that decision.period.

speakin of sequeena,dam its been months since i last saw you 4 mths to be exact,and yea sorry i cant make it today due to my training.but definitly b4 sch reopens i wanna have a meal with you and a.s.k! haha!

anyway...missing you sweets...cant wait for you to be back tmr!