how how how????

man...

today met sweets during lunch and she sure looks pretty in her uniform but she dun wanna listen to me..sometimes i tihnk u lk prettier in less make up..u lk great in both but u dun have to put on so much sweets.. ;p

during lunch she said i shrank..i was smiling..but deep inside..i was hurt.

than i asked myself the whole day...what do i want ?do i want bbding or muay thai?i took up muay thai for the interest and to protect myself and my loved one.however i took up bodybuilding ..used to be becuz of her,not anymore..its not for myself and for my loved one..i want her to feel proud..but i cant be good at 2 things..i really duno what to do..sometimes..i wanna ask my friend...but its myself who i shld really ask..

after i returned from muay thai training and took a bath,i stared in the mirror and asked myself.its what i have been doing and what i am now that pple look up to me,that pple recognise me for that pple love me for.pple recognise me in sec sch,jc and poly and muay thai for the size that i have.yea,i wanna return back to my size..with abs and to grow bigger from there...

tmr is the 1st of april.let me start all over again..plan my meals,training and sleeping time all over again..my strength dropped as my weight dropped..its ok..ill start all over again..let tmr be anew beginning..

miss you sweets,cant wait to see you again tmr..