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past few days had been fun.but...i only visited one house.my relatives came thrice.thank god im too tired too move.last night was kinda memorable..invited hydher over to my hse,wanted to call felix but he aint free.

anyway..hydher and the rest were sitting infront of me eating satay and steamboat and all that shit,i really wanted to throw the food away!!!all i cld do was stare and smell.afterwhich ,both of us went down and made some rockets.haha,dam the thing actually flew!thank god it stopped just before hitting the cars,i made mine,lit it up and accidentally toppled it over and it was facing us!we ran and hid like mad dogs..lolright now the void deck is vandalised cuz of us lol...

went up and gathered with my witty,pretty and funny cousins.played some weird card game but was really fun!everyone was lauginh at me for my slow reaction time...and i nearly lost...but i didnt!hydher played the second round and got stuck cuz of all the hokkien food names..lol..ive got to say what weird names we had...chicken rice mai kacheng...?!so he lost and got his hair tied up by joyce.

seriously,it was fun and we were really fuckin noisy i think the police might arrive any minute.

as i was eating my breakfast this morning,i was thinking abt it,what felix or weiliang said was true.what happened to me might actually be karma.i didnt understand why she did those things to me.looking back,i broke up with her without any reason.just because i was insecure ,cuz there were 8 others going after her.but i didnt clarify myself or talked to her about it,i just broke up with her.twice infact cuz of this.she was left in the daark wondering what she did wrong,crying everyday,i was her world back than ,but i didnt care,i treated her like dirt sometimes.i would hang up on her whenever i needed to do my work,ignore her for weeks cuz we had misunderstandings and all..almost cheated on her once...

now it all comes back to me...she was my world,she dumped me for no apparent reason and cheated on me.thank god ,it happened on my first week of dieting,thank god it didnt fdrag on for months of i would feel even more devastated.perhaps it was karma,but it was fair to me cuz i learnt my lesson and it ended at the appropriate time.