continuation on today!

right..just finished my workout..its 1115 pm..and i have nothing to do..for now.

for some reason,i keep having cramps..really fucking painful where i would scream till the cops come knocking..well..not literally..but..yea really loud..

its 97 days away..got to get my durians out..now its gona be abs 3 times a week.dam after i stopped doing abs like 2 years ago..its so difficult to hit what i usually did!

last time,i wouldwake up at 3am in the morning b4 sch and do 200 situps at the fitness corner before going for a run.

now,well..lets say im struggling at 80 sit ups ,100 legs raises and 15 minutes of twisting.btw,it aint normal situps,i place my leg on a chair..so its more or less like crunches..HARD!

so this is my plan..

by 70 days out,i must have my top 4 abs clearly defined..

by 50 days out,my lower love handles must disappear..

30 days out,my lower 2 abs must appear..

20 days out,i should be ripped and stay at that condition till comp day!

exams are exactly a month away..got a lot to catch up since i skipped so many lessons the week before..due to shitty setbacks..


this is it..its now or never!

woo!

im so freaking excited whenever i come home from school nowadays..yap something was missing from my life i just did not know what it was..and finally it appeared!

haha yesterday,was my brothers bday..and his best friend shared $ with my bros gf to buy a x box 360 for him!as for me,i decided to change my presents ive been giving him..it had always been a zippo lighter..so yesterday i bought him a game"assasins creed".it cost me 95 bucks...well it sure looked like fun!the graphics are.. a...m.a..z..i...n..g!

damn it 97 days from comp...as i was eating at mensa today...i stared at the bak kut teh signboard while eating my xhix breasts...after 5 mins..i cldnt take it and bought it..fuck it was like heaven!no oil..but loads of sodium...well..satisfied my cravings...gota stop for this week!

sheesh..managed to chat up with this really cute girl in my computer class..shes cute in every aspect..the way she talks..her appearance and all..she stands out from the class of 40...jasmine..nice name..

for some fucking reason,i keep perspiring ..do not know why...7am in the morning..walking to the bus stop which is like 100 meters away and ill perspire like a dog when the sun isnt even in sight..


still thinking of her..still smoking..but ill quit..soon..cant go on like this..do not know why i just cant seem to let myself hate her..somehow i felt that there was passion in those kisses..somehow..

i've been reading felix's blog and i came across him encouraging pple to watch this documentary called zeitgeist.

i watched it and i was dumb founded.my mom watched it and she was shocked..its really eye opening and all i can say is..watch every single episode and watch it with an open mind.let ur believes and thoughts free,dun hold on to them while viewing the videos..perhaps ..it was all a lie..perhaps not..watch it and decide for urself...



let me quote this from the documentary...

"the more you begin to investigate,what we think we understand,what you think we've been

doing.we have beeen lied to...what makes you think that we have not been lied to by

religious instituition etc..."


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part 13

what a new beggining this is!

today is the first day of school..well to me to say the least.i took an mc yesterday as i didnt wanna go to sch yesterday.

today i went to check my results..i would like to say im pretty impressed..infact im really happy with myself i think i deserve a pat on my back.the last time i did this well was when i was in secondary two..fighting head on with bertram for the first position in class..i lost in mid term and eventually got my title end of the year.arh..those days..

the fifth term in poly and for the first time i didnt fail a single subject.my mkt quiz got a c im satisfied as i was like the only one who didnt bring my book and it was an open book test.

my second worst subject which i though i was gona fail,cuz i had not studied and it was my classmate who spend an hour plus teaching me the day before..i got a 52 %!im so satisfied!thanks weijie!

next up is maths ,i got 72 marks..i wanted to bang my head on the table as i could have gotten 80 marks..i interpreted the fucking question wrongly..cant believe it..but it has happened already..

than comes engineering acct,i got a 78.85 %,i was shocked!haha i thought i wld score like 60 plus...gota thank weijie and teacher of course!

and last but not least,its organizational behavior where i got 82 %,that im not surprised as i really went all out for it..and also thank weijie..

well,this sem has taken a 180 degrees turn.im totally happy the way turn out so far besides the fact that i lost her as a friend .i guess ive proved to myself that you reap what you sow..how much effort determines your end result.trust me..before this,no matter how hard i studied this sem,i didnt think i could get this grades...but it proved me wrong.

one thing that i failed to see till today.ive failed to see that im actually showered by so much love by my family and the friends around me.im so thankful for that...i cant believe i failed to see it..so actually ,when i thought i was always alone...im wrong..my friend was right..im already so lucky to have so many ppe behind me..why do i need to find a relationship ?